Transmuting Neurotic Holding Patterns
[00:00:00] So another one of the really big, massive things that I did back in 2019, when I had my big awakening and I saw the primordial mechanism of energetic transformation, is, and honestly, this completely, fundamentally changed my life forever. It was a massive, massive thing, but I did it so quickly and effortlessly.
[00:00:27] And I was going through so many other massive changes at that point in my life that I completely forgot about it. I completely forgot that I had done this, and I think I was kind of just assuming that everyone else on the spiritual journey had already done this. But I'm realizing that most people haven't, most people don't even realize that it's possible.
[00:00:51] But what I did was I very quickly transmuted all of my neurotic holding patterns. And what a neurotic holding pattern is, is it's basically any type of inauthentic, contractive based way of holding your body or holding your face, which is based on inauthenticity. It's based on succumbing to the contractive urge that your mind tells you of like, oh, this is how you need to present yourself in the situation.
[00:01:39] And it tends to happen more in social situations, but it can happen when we're alone too. But it's basically the contractive urges that our body mind sends us which is telling us to not be fully authentic, to present ourselves in a certain way, or to be a bit uncomfortable, to hold back expressions and emotions in the face.
[00:02:06] That's a really big one. Pretty much, probably 90 plus percent of humans are doing this where their face is very stifled and contracted because they've been, they've become conditioned into suppressing certain emotions and not allowing their emotionality to flow through their facial structure. So we'll be subconsciously holding our face in contractive ways where we don't allow our full
[00:02:35] energy and expressions to flow through the face because we're basically succumbing to social societal conditioning, and conditioning from our parents and things like that. But this is a very big thing. It's also, yeah not just with your face, but with your body too. Like we'll hold our body in certain ways in social situations because we subtly think that that's how we're supposed to act or that's how we're supposed to be proper, or we're slightly afraid of taking up more space.
[00:03:09] Or we're afraid of the other way of being too small. So we'll kind of overcompensate by trying to take up more space from a place of reactivity and inauthenticity. But so yeah, that's really, that's what a neurotic holding pattern is. It's any type of way of holding your face or your body, which is inauthentic and it's contraction based.
[00:03:36] And the way that you transmute neurotic holding patterns is through the exact same way of everything else that I talk about on this channel. It's following the primordial formula of energetic transformation and the formula of energetic transformation is it's attention slash intention, which is focus.
[00:04:04] It's what you're focusing on. And then that's the masculine principle. And then you merge focus with transcendence, which is the feminine principle. And when you combine these two, you give birth to energetic transformation. You give birth to energetic progression. And transcendence refers to being on the screen level rather than the movie level.
[00:04:31] And the screen is the movie, and the movie is the screen, but the screen transcends the movie and that also refers to non-dual consciousness, isness, flowing isness, transcendent neutrality, effortless impersonal being. There's been many words that different spiritual teachers have used to describe, the transcendent, impersonal layer.
[00:05:01] The word I tend to use is flowing isness because I think it, I don't know, it just kind of resonates the most for me. But so yeah, the way that you transmute the neurotic holding patterns, you can actually do it extremely quickly. You can transmute your entire life through this in a period of days and weeks.
[00:05:25] If you follow this formula and you get good at transcending and not succumbing to the contractive urges, but so what this would look like is as you're going into some kind of social situation. You will feel your body kind of want to contract, kind of want to freeze up, kind of want to go into some old pattern, some mind based holding pattern that the body is familiar with and the body kind of
[00:06:00] is used to succumbing to, but the way that you transmute that energy isn't by fighting with the contraction or like trying to suppress it or get rid of it or like push through it. 'cause if you're trying to push through the contraction, pushing is actually based on more contraction. And so that never leads to real transformation.
[00:06:24] When people are trying to push through neurotic holding patterns, that's when it just leads to other neurotic holding patterns. That's like when people are into like body language and that kind of thing, and they kind of think like, oh, you're supposed to be open when you're in public, or if you're gonna be confident, you have to have wide, big body language.
[00:06:46] So they'll be subtly forcing theirselves to hold theirselves in another way, which is inauthentic. But so a, again, the way that you transmute the neurotic holding patterns is when you feel that contractive urge come up in your body. Rather than succumbing to what your mind tells you to do with that urge, which will either be to succumb to it and to go into the old familiar holding pattern, or it will tell you to battle with it or suppress it, rather than succumbing to those,
[00:07:25] you transcend the urge and transcendence leads to transformation. That's how you're able to flow through the neurotic holding pattern and you allow your energy to flow again, and then you're able to be more authentic in the social situation. You're able to hold your body or your face, how your face or body actually truly wants to come through in that moment.
[00:07:53] How it actually wants to be, how it authentically is. And your lower mind instinctually resists expansion and resists evolution, so your lower mind will always tell you exactly what you're most likely to believe to get you to snag on the contraction and to tell you that you can't do this, but you actually can.
[00:08:20] Anyone can do this. It's very, very simple and easy. And it can happen very quickly. It's just through not succumbing to those contractive urges and transcending them from the flowing isness, from that transcendent impersonal layer. And as you're able to do this, it's very funny 'cause what you'll find is that when you stop
[00:08:48] subscribing and consenting to these contractive neurotic holding patterns, and you just allow yourself to be authentic. People actually will like you way more. This will make you very, very socially attractive. And it's completely backwards to what the mind thinks because the mind tells us that we need to go into the neurotic holding patterns in order to fit in
[00:09:14] to the people that are around us. And to kind of like try to get people to like us or to try to not be too big or to try to be bigger. It could go either way, basically to be inauthentic in some way because this is how we think that we're supposed to act. But when you
[00:09:34] actually transmute these neurotic holding patterns, and you show up more authentically. It makes you like a thousand times more attractive. And people will naturally be gravitated towards you and they'll like you and be magnetically drawn to you without really even understanding why. Like most people won't even understand
[00:09:59] this side of things, they're not gonna think, oh, I like Timothy more, because he is not in his neurotic holding patterns. They'll just think, the way it's experienced for other people is like, something just seems different about you. You just seem a little bit better. There's just something about you that's better, and what it is
[00:10:17] is that you're operating from a higher level of being a more congruent and aligned and authentic way of being. And humans are naturally drawn to that. We're naturally drawn to people which are in higher states without even necessarily understanding why we are. And it's so funny because it's like going back to the the body language thing
[00:10:45] when you're not in your neurotic holding patterns and you show up authentically, you can have your body language be quite literally anything. As long as you're being authentic, you will always get good results, and people will always see you as a leader and you will naturally command respect and attraction without following any of the normal like body language based rules.
[00:11:12] And I know this firsthand because before I had my big awakening and I started transforming all of my energies. I was extremely socially shut down. I was extremely inauthentic. My energy was extremely stifled and pretty much everything about me was scripted and force based. Like I would literally spend,
[00:11:35] i've spent hundreds of hours studying things like psychology and body language and charisma and all of this stuff, and I would put so much effort into this stuff and it would give superficial results in a way. Like, it's like you can sometimes notice that
[00:11:57] if you don't cross your arms or you kind of allow yourself to be a little bit bigger in social situations, you know, you have more eye contact or those kinds of things, those can lead to superficial results. But it's very kind of yeah, it's very surface level and it's very effort based. It's very contractive based and it's not really particularly sustainable.
[00:12:25] Whereas when you do it the other way, when you're not in these neurotic holding patterns and you allow yourself to show up fully authentically, and to be as you are. You can literally hold yourself and act any way in a social situation, and people will just love you. People will be all over you. Like for me,
[00:12:48] well, when I was younger, when I was into the body language stuff, I would never allow myself to cross my arms. I would never allow myself like to have like slouched shoulders, like I would always be walking around like chest up chin high, like kind of like following all the traditional body language rules.
[00:13:07] I would be really focused on maintaining eye contact and all of that kind of stuff. And again, it would gimme superficial results, but I still was not. It wasn't like that foundational. Whereas nowadays in a lot of social situations, I'll be the complete opposite. I'll have my arms crossed, I'll have my legs crossed.
[00:13:32] I won't maybe necessarily be maintaining a ton of eye contact. But because I'm being super authentic and I'm not in these neurotic holding patterns, my energy is fully congruent, it's not stifled and it's flowing. So I'm in a much higher state and I actually command like a thousand times more respect than when I was doing all the boisterous body language stuff.
[00:13:58] It's like, and I'm way more attractive to people, and that sounds a little bit egoic, but it's honestly just true. Like when you're not in these neurotic holding patterns, people love you and they want to be all around you and they're interested in you, because they feel that something about you is different. And it's that your energy is aligned and congruent and you're not stifled.
[00:14:20] And that's not to say that I'm always just like all closed off and that kind of things. A lot of times I am open and expansive and I'll, may hold a lot of eye contact and all of that kind of thing, but no matter what I'm doing, I'm always being fully authentic and I'm just allowing my energy to flow.
[00:14:40] And so I get the same results either way, no matter how my body is positioned. I'm like getting a lot of respect and magnetism and like attraction from other people. And you can actually notice how this works. If, if you look at like certain, say like celebrities or just people you've known, say like people that are naturally like really, really cool, just charismatic, like likable and outgoing.
[00:15:10] This is what those people are doing without even necessarily realizing that that's what they're doing. And if you look at those kinds of people, those people can show up in a social situation and they can act completely opposite to how you're supposed to act in that situation. Like they may be breaking certain norms, like not fitting in to the kind of group think and
[00:15:35] neurotic holding patterns that everyone else is succumbing to. But those people, even when they're not conforming to those norms, everyone will just love them. Like, people just like, it's like certain people, it's like, for, it seems like for some reason they can just get away with acting however they want.
[00:15:53] And it's like they're just very attractive and like people just, people give them permission to, to, to act differently. And then they also influence other people in the group. Like suddenly the old leaders of that group will kind of start chasing that person and they'll kind of like, they'll step outside of the normal group dynamics because they're so attracted to that like very charismatic, like outgoing person.
[00:16:19] And this is why, it's because those people are in a higher energy state because their energy is more congruent and expansive. And also when you're in these higher energy states, you're in alignment with your intuition and your inspiration, which guide you to do and say the best things in that situation, which give the best results, which are also flowing from cre, creativity and responding to the situation
[00:16:50] from expansion rather than reacting to the situation from contraction. And yeah, this is very, very big. You, you have to transmute your neurotic holding patterns and it will completely change your life socially like this is how you become like extremely charismatic and like very magnetic and liked by people because on the other end of it, the more that someone's in neurotic holding patterns and their energy is all stifled and contracted,
[00:17:24] again, people don't even necessarily realize the reason why, but they're just extremely unattracted to people like that because something about them just feels icky. It feels gross. It feels weird. It feels unlikeable. And what it is is that they're instinctually picking up on the person's contraction and the lack of congruence and the lower energy states.
[00:17:48] So they're naturally repelled by that, and they don't really want anything to do with them. And it's very frustrating when you're in that mode and you're in the contractive, neurotic way, you can be putting so much effort into being likable, into being charismatic and to doing all of the normal things that psychology tells you that you're supposed to do to get people to like you.
[00:18:12] Like all that shit of like how to win friends and influence people and stuff. You can put so much effort into that, and again, you might get superficial surface level results, but it's like the more contraction you put into that, the less people like you, and it's so frustrating. And then you just become even more contracted, you become even more shut down, and you become even more afraid of being authentic and you don't even understand what true authenticity is.
[00:18:43] Because you become so masked, masked and armored and shut down. And then you just keep trying harder and harder to fit in, and it just keeps repelling everyone, and it keeps stifling your energy. And leading to worse and worse results. But this is why, it's because of these neurotic holding patterns.
[00:19:05] And people carry a lot of it in their face and in their eyes. And once you
[00:19:11] awake to this, and you start to transmute your own neurotic holding patterns. You'll see people doing this, and you can literally psychically read people's emotions and thought patterns by their neurotic holding patterns. You'll be able to tell by the way someone is positioning their eyes or the way that they're holding their self, or they're reacting to a situation.
[00:19:33] You'll be able to basically tell what that person is feeling and thinking in that moment. And where their energetic contractions are. Because it's very clear like when you're, when you're not in your own neurotic holding patterns, you can see it in others and then you also understand it within yourself.
[00:19:53] Yeah, doing it, transmuting it on the face level is really important. That will go a long way, transmuting it in your eyes and in your face. And again, it's just through following that formula. It's like when you go into the social situation. You will feel your body and your face and your eyes kind of want to freeze up and to go into some familiar pattern, and you're getting that contractive signal from your mind and body.
[00:20:25] You just don't succumb to that. You transcend it. By being the flowing isness, being the screen level. And then as you transcend these contractions, your energy will start to flow again, and you'll come through more authentically, and then you'll actually get better social results completely effortlessly, and that will inspire you
[00:20:46] to keep going. 'cause you'll be like, oh shit. Like this actually works and it feels way better. That's the thing. It requires way less energy. It requires no energy because it's natural and it's flowing. And then you're actually much more present too, because when you're all caught up in the neurotic holding patterns,
[00:21:07] it's stifling and clouding your energy and it creates fog and haziness in your perception, and you're not able to be as present with what is actually in front of you and like who you're communicating with. But yeah, you do it, you do it through the flowing isness, through the transcendent level. And it actually, in a way you could say that the neurotic holding patterns, it's not just a physical thing.
[00:21:38] It actually carries over to the mind and emotions as well. Like we can have neurotic holding patterns in our thoughts and emotions too, where we have contractions within our aetheric and astral bodies, which is our emotional and mental bodies. It's really just your thoughts and emotions. And it could be things like having resistance to being sad in public, or being angry or being happy, like smiling and laughing, and just like
[00:22:10] resistance to allowing the emotions and the thoughts to flow through completely authentically. But you transmute those through this exact same thing through this, this transcendent level. And yeah, it's just about not succumbing to those contractive urges, not trying to fight or push through them.
[00:22:29] 'cause that's based on more contraction, just effortless being, transcendent neutrality, flowing isness to the contractive urges and then flowing through, not succumbing to those. And yeah. And that will, that will really go a long way. And the emotions, the neurotic holding patterns in the emotions is largely tied to this physicality.
[00:22:58] Like a lot of people, they're subtly afraid to allow their emotions to flow through their face. Because usually what happens is early on in childhood, we become conditioned either through our family or through, a lot of times it's, it's at school. Like that was where it happened a lot for me was. We may get made fun of at some point for like allowing our emotions to come through in a certain way.
[00:23:26] And then that being made fun of it, it can really kind of sting and hurt. And then we form like an armor. We form like a scar around it. That's what a samskara is. And then we develop into this neurosis. We develop, the armor turns into this neurotic holding pattern, and then our brain, our mind body connection starts forming blockages where we're basically saying like, oh, it's not okay to laugh in certain situations, or It's not okay to cry or it's not okay to be aggressive or so on.
[00:24:03] And then, yeah, and then we become restricted and then we just keep doing and doing it and doing it and doing it. And the thing is, is like really, that person making fun of you or whatever, or your parents kind of like conditioning you to act a certain way. That was them that was in the wrong, that was them that was in the contraction.
[00:24:22] And then they projected that onto you. And then because we're so raw and vulnerable when we're children and no one teaches us this stuff, we just conform to it. We conform to the contraction, to the conditioning. It's funny that all these words have the word con in them, and con means fake, false, fraud.
[00:24:42] And that's what it is. It's being inauthentic and it's being conned. It's bullshit and it energetically stifles us. And that's not to say the thing is, is that, when you're not in these neurotic holding patterns and your energy isn't all stifled, it's not to say that you still can't use a certain level of discernment in terms of how you show up socially.
[00:25:08] It's like there may be certain situations where you may authentically feel the urge to laugh or feel the urge to cry, but it's not really quite the right time to do that. And you can not do that. You don't always have to be completely a hundred percent authentic, but there's a difference between doing that in a way where you just do it in that moment.
[00:25:34] Like you just kind of hold back in that moment. But it doesn't lead to these like neurotic holding patterns versus when we're just like unconsciously and subconsciously doing it constantly from this place of like contraction and fear. And also the thing is, is
[00:25:56] really, again, what this is all about is it's about responding to life rather than reacting to life. And you can respond to life in the sense that you flow your energy in different directions. Like sometimes it, you may respond to life by being a little bit more stern or a little bit more small, or a little bit more big, or a little bit happier, or a little bit sadder.
[00:26:21] But when you're responding, it can always flow from expansion, even if it's a kind of physical contraction in the sense that you're like being a bit small, energetically, that can be expansive because the right decision will come from your expansive nature, which will come from your intuition and your inspiration.
[00:26:44] And then even if it is something which is slightly like physically or emotionally contractive, on an energetic level, even that can feel expansive. And so yeah, this changed my life. This will like if you're someone who's very socially shut down, this will blow your f---- mind. Like this, you can literally like those people that you see that are always so naturally charismatic and likable, and you just don't understand what it is about them.
[00:27:18] Like you just think they're lucky or something. This is what it is, and you can become like that. You can be one of those people, and it doesn't have to be this slow, drawn out thing. Like a lot of people think that you have to solve neurotic holding patterns by doing like intense breath work or like years of body-based yoga.
[00:27:42] But the thing is, is those kinds of modalities are more gross ways of transformation and the more gross methods of transformation they take longer, they are less smooth. And they're less effective. Like the more subtle something is, the more powerful and quick and smooth it is. And this is the most subtle layer of transformation.
[00:28:11] That's why it's the primordial mechanism. And the subtlest things are those which are most actually simple and easy. And the thing is. Is we've actually all been following this formula to different degrees our entire lives. It's just so simple and subtle and ordinary. We completely overlook it. We never notice that this is what is allowing
[00:28:40] progress to happen. But literally any time that you get better at any skill or you have any level of progression and energetic unfoldment, like say you're taking up a new sport or a new hobby, the moments when you're getting better at that skill is when this formula is happening. It's when you're focusing on the skill, you're engaged in the skill, but then you're dipping it into flow state.
[00:29:08] You're dipping into flowing isness, the transcendent layer, the impersonal layer. And then when you're doing that, that's when you have the energetic progression. That's when you have the transformation, but it's so subtle and simple, nobody notices it. No. I've, I'm the only person that I've ever found that discovered this.
[00:29:31] I don't know if I'm the first, but nobody has ever pointed this out that I know of. And I would be very interested if you guys know someone else that has. But this is what it is and nobody notices it because we live in a world which is built around conditioning people to look to the more gross and complex things as having the power and, and
[00:30:02] being what matters because we live in a kind of matrix, which is trying to build slaves to the matrix, and the lower mind serves the matrix, and so the lower mind is constantly trying to condition us to succumb to contractive urges and to look towards the more gross and complex methods and energies and things as being the way of having progress or having power, or having transformation, and so on.
[00:30:38] And it's partly because the lower mind is, it's run by these energetic parasites, which feed off of contraction. They feed off of fear and pain and suffering and anguish and all of the bad things. And so the energetic parasites do everything they can to prevent us from discovering the primordial structures of the universe.
[00:31:04] And this is the primordial mechanism of transformation. This is how you change your entire f---ing life. This is how you do it. This is, you can do this with anything. It's like my previous video where I talk about making your mind sharper and improving your memory. That's this, that's basically dissolving the neurotic mental holding patterns.
[00:31:26] This is how, this is how I made myself way more athletic and I really sharply improved my reflexes, very, very quickly. Because growing up I was always extremely unathletic and I always hated it. I was always so jealous. I always wanted to be one of the like jock, sporty, charismatic, like cool kinds of kids.
[00:31:50] But I was so shut down. I was so contracted and inauthentic, and my energy was so stifled and constricted. And then everything around me, all of my family and everyone. Well, it's not to blame my family, they're just doing their best. But it's like all of the information I was taking in was just telling me things like, try harder, be tougher, put in work.
[00:32:14] Like, like you, you have to grind for progress. And then so I kept trying harder and harder and harder and I was pouring everything into it. And I would make progress. I would have superficial results. And I would have success in certain things, but it was so trivial and surface level and the output that I was getting for the amount of input that I was getting was like absolutely nothing.
[00:32:40] It was like doing more for less, whereas this being on the subtle side, being on the powerful side, it's like accomplishing, or it's like. It's like less is more. It's like accomplishing more with less. And that's the way to be, the subtlety of life is where all the power is. And so yeah, this is how I improved my reflexes and I became more athletic because I basically saw that
[00:33:15] the reason I was bad at all that stuff was because I was so contracted around it and I was so restricted and I was trying so hard, and I literally, not long after I had this big awakening and I saw this mechanism, oh, I got a bug. I saw this mechanism of transformation. I had a moment where I was in my room and I dropped something, and as I went to catch the thing.
[00:33:46] I literally saw in that moment how when I would go to catch the thing, my mind would turn on instantly. Like in the blink of a like light speed, my mind would turn on and I would contract and I would try to catch the thing. I would put a subtle effort into it, and then that's when I would drop it. That's when I would mess it up and I would fumble it and I would
[00:34:12] have bad reflexes, it's like it wouldn't work well. But then I saw that I could just transmute that by transcending that extremely subtle contractive signal, and then it was like I could just catch stuff completely effortlessly without even trying, without even thinking about it. It's like my body just knew what to do.
[00:34:33] And then now that's how it is for me. Like my reflexes are kind of crazy. It's like I can drop something and just scoop it out of midair, just like outta nowhere. It feels like Spider-Man or, or something. And that's how it, it's that same principle is how I became more athletic. Like it's, I would engage with sports, but from the flowing isness, I would transcend those contractive urges.
[00:34:57] And then naturally I would just be good at stuff without even trying. And yeah, and it's like I would always subscribe to those beliefs of thinking like, oh, I just have bad genetics, or I'm just, I'm just not as good as these guys or something. But, and genetics can play a role in a way, like some people are definitely more inclined towards being more athletic or being more smart, or being more social or something, but
[00:35:28] everyone has the potential for greatness in really all of those things because you have to understand that most human beings, well, you have to understand that you can change your DNA, like your DNA is not as static as people think that it is. And most people are only living at maybe five to 10% of their genetic potential because their energy is so stifled and contracted.
[00:35:53] But the way that you transmute your DNA and you heal it isn't by doing any of that bullshit crazy DNA work and stuff that's on the internet. It's through this, it's through this subtle, simple principle, this subtle formula of primordial transformation. And yeah, that you can rapidly become better at anything.
[00:36:15] You can become better socially, become better athletically, become better with women or with men or like, like literally anything better with money, better with the speaking, better with riding a bike, better with literally anything. It's through this principle. It's through engaging with the activity without succumbing to those contractive urges, and just transcending them.
[00:36:45] And yeah, that's how you do it. That's how you dissolve neurotic holding patterns and it will literally change your life. It's amazing. It changed mine, and I hope it changes yours, and that's my message for today. Much love.